I'm Okay

A song written in the dark.

I wrote this from being hit by a difficult time after those seizures. I felt like sharing because I think many could relate.

Thank you.

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Don’t believe me

When I say I’m okay.

Because the reality

Is tears I’ve hidden away.

Every smile I wear

Is practiced every day.

If you look a little closer,

You’ll see I’m fading away.

Don’t believe me when I say I’m okay.

The truth is hard for me to say.

Still I wear these words like armor,

Hoping they’ll keep the hurt at bay.

You ask how I’m doing.

I tell you the same phrase

I’m okay.

Don’t tell me you believe me

When I’m lying through the pain.

I’m okay.

Just tell me that you see me.

You don’t have to fix a thing.

Just stay a little longer

When I whisper,

I’m okay.

I’ve become so good at hiding

Everything I cannot face.

Laughing through the silence,

Wearing someone else’s face.

Every “I’m fine” gets easier,

Every night becomes the same.

The louder that I say it,

The less it feels that way.

Maybe one day these words

Won’t sound so far away.

Maybe I’ll stop pretending

That everything has changed

You ask how I’m doing.

I tell you the same phrase

I’m okay.

Don’t tell me you believe me

When I’m breaking every day.

I’m okay.

Just tell me that you hear me.

Don’t let these words erase

Everything I’m trying not to say.

I’m okay.

Maybe I’m scared

Of becoming a burden.

Maybe I’ve forgotten

How to ask for help.

So I keep repeating

The only words I know,

Hoping if I say them long enough...

They’ll finally become true.

You ask how I’m doing.

I still say the same phrase.

I’m okay.

But this time, if you look into my eyes,

You’ll know what I can’t say.

Just tell me you see me.

Stay until the silence breaks.

Maybe tomorrow

I’ll find another way.

Until then...

I’ll keep saying,

I’m okay.

Trying to believe it,

One day

I’ll be okay.

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I'm doing alright. I'm still getting myself together, but I am here with you.

I hope you are doing well. No matter how things feel, you're not alone. Sending love and positivity your way. ❤️